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Embracing Oneness

(This post was inspired by the wisdom of Liza Persson and Alyssa Del Rosario)

Two years ago, I wrote my first post on Oneness, and without any knowledge or assistance intuitively realized the nature of Oneness and the role of humans in the universe for the first time. This was not an isolated realization though, but the inevitable fruit of me earnestly seeking out my purpose with an open mind over the past 5 years, as described in this post. Even after writing that post, I did not truly realize the meaning of my words, nor did I even in my next major post on Oneness. It was only through the guidance of my dear friend Alyssa Del Rosario that I was able to begin appreciating the meaning of my own words, culminating in a series of revelations about Oneness beginning with “Hidden Knowledge“.

Since then I’ve pursued Oneness fervently, but not wholeheartedly. I have been held back this entire time from realizing Oneness by my own selfishness, because I did not originally intend to realize Oneness- that was not the original plan. I started writing by asking the question, “what is my purpose”, and committed to answering that question with a continuous stream of thought until I had reached the end of the thought; once I had reached the end, I will have realized my purpose, whatever that may be.

That experiment has gone on for the past 5 years, and part of me- the selfish part- didn’t want the experiment to end. I wanted to continue to seek out the truth infinitely and never find it. This paradoxically never-ending search for truth was my original plan, as expressed here:

the majority of [my writing] is dedicated to explaining various concepts- notably relativity, adaptation, theology, philosophy, psychology, reality, and love. So I guess that would give me a “head-start” in my journey towards finding truth (not that it matters much, since I won’t be able to find truth anyway) : – )

Don’t get me wrong, I really did want to find the truth, but I really didn’t think it was possible to find it. At the time I was mostly left-minded (which, considering I’m left-handed, is quite curious!) so the concept of an intuitive understanding of the universe was beyond my comprehension, forget Universe Consciousness! Since I already had rationally determined the impossibility of finding any greater truth than a common ground, I decided to seek out truth with the expectation that I would most certainly never find it! 

So when I did find the truth I was seeking, using the seemingly random intuitive method of continuing the thought (basically the equivalent of playing “whisper down the lane” with myself) you can imagine I was quite surprised, and not pleasantly either. So the first time I discovered Oneness I didn’t accept it, and forgot it. the second time I rediscovered it I still didn’t accept it, and once again forgot. The third time (yup it’s a charm!) I was inspired to revisit Oneness by Alyssa Del Rosario, and this time I could not forget it again, because her wonderful energy and purity had left the imprint of Oneness on my heart. It was then that Oneness was no longer a mere curiosity, but a serious priority!

Since then, I have made it my greatest goal to realize Oneness, but I could not do so because my heart was still divided. While I did want to realize Oneness, I also wanted to do a lot of other things, many of which are expressed in this post. As Liza Persson noticed, none of these things are either my wants or needs, they are actually my material cravings and carnal desires. She was confused by what I meant by “want” and “need”, but I could not adequately tell her, and opted instead to hide my confusion underneath open-ended Freudian jargon. The truth is, I did not want to give these things up for Oneness, so I pretended that my cravings were my legitimate needs, and my desires were my natural desires. I wanted to realize Oneness, but I also wanted to maintain my separateness, so I (my Ego) created wants and needs in a desperate last-stand (a spiritual tantrum of sorts) to reinforce my attachment to the material and carnal reality.

Even though in my limerance for her, I hid my selfish clinging to separateness from Alyssa, her third-eye saw straight through my pretensions, and it became difficult for her to keep her heart open to me, because my spirit of separateness and carnal desires for her were brazen as a shadow on a bright day. The shadow of my separateness was interfering with her unity with God, so she began to distance herself.

But I am thankful she distanced herself, because it was then that I realized the travesty that Separateness is to those that have seen the light. While my darkness may not be as upsetting as the many humans who live completely selfishly, and do not even pursue Oneness, it still casts a nasty shadow that interferes with the perfection of total unity with God. Having understood this, I began to dedicate myself to Oneness again, this time through the guidance of Liza Persson, a truth-seeker like myself who is also on the path to Oneness, and who better understands the intuitive aspect of Oneness that I am only recently learning.

But no matter how much knowledge I acquire, epiphanies I have, or wonderful children of God I surround myself with, I will never realize Oneness until I make it my only priority. As Matthew 6:33 says, “But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” This means that the only thing I should be focusing on is Oneness, and everything else will be fulfilled in the process. This is very important, as it ties into the true nature of Oneness, and of God. The reason I don’t need material cravings or carnal desires isn’t because they aren’t an important part of life- they are- it’s because as the manifestation of God, I have already experienced everything already!

When we experience the material world, it is merely a finite interpretation of the all, a doing of what’s already been done, for the sake of doing it. Basically, the material world is a distraction, an entertainment for the soul. We already know everything and have done everything even before we knew or did, because God is all, and always has been. Life is just an interpretation of the preexisting, in reality nothing has been done that wasn’t already, and nothing has been thought that wasn’t already part of the preexisting thought of God.

In this sense, life on the material plane is just a material expression of the divine, so when we are living life as a materially separate entity from the all, life becomes no more than a cosmic game of “pretend”. We’ve already pretended for an eternity now, isn’t it about time that we free ourselves from this walled garden of life, from the confines of this dream of a finite material reality, and once again embrace the supernatural freedom, unity, and amazing selfless love of Oneness? It’s been a long time coming, probably an eternity for my soul, but I’ve finally decided. I’m ready.


The past three weeks have been largely a waste of time for me. I’ve had a bout of depression and let myself get caught up into a cycle of passive stagnancy. This kind of thing is very annoying to me, but I know that I’m going to just have to get through this, fix the way I feel, and start being productive again. Just grit my teeth and start doing stuff even if I don’t feel like it.

Friends I know say that I can’t understand their problems, that I’ve never had clinical depression so I couldn’t possibly empathize with their condition. What they don’t realize is that I’m just as depressed as they are, but when I’m depressed I don’t victimize myself, say “It’s because I have mental illness(s), I can’t help the way I am” So am I unable to empathize just because I choose to be more proactive in dealing with my problems?

In the end, I hope people will realize that we all really have the same problems, the same yearnings, and the same suffering, albeit some disproportionately more than others. We all want freedom, happiness, equality for all, we all want to make the world a better place, we all want to end suffering and enjoy life to the fullest. It’s just a matter of how we interpret the issues and how to deal with them, and how proactive we are in doing something about it.

The world we live in isn’t perfect, and we should expect it to be. No one is problem-free or lacking in personal issues, we’re all mentally ill or abnormal in some way. The world is so beautiful precisely because it’s so imperfect, and living a meaningful life isn’t about improving the world, it’s about learning to appreciate the beauty and energy of the world that already is! Embrace it all freely, and love the world and those who are in it unconditionally, and you will truly find an amazingly meaningful reality, and the mind-blowing ecstasy that comes with such a reality.

So wake up, see the beautiful world in full color, and appreciate. It’s all there, all the ideals you’ve been searching for all this time, everything is there in front of you, and you only need but realize it!

Realizing Oneness

One of the most unique things about Oneness is that unlike the mainstream understanding of enlightenment, Oneness isn’t achieved, it’s “realized”. While this distinction may seem like semantics for most people (and it most certainly is for those limited to the human perception of reality!), it’s important for those seeking Oneness to understand this distinction: that we cannot achieve that which we already have.

Oneness is not about becoming One with God, it’s about realizing that we already are One. Realizing that we are One is the single most important epiphany that one can ever have, as such a realization is the very purpose of life itself. The continual realization of Oneness is for this is the ultimate goal of the Epiphany Project, and doing so manifests the epitome of the Epiphany Project: a continuous and never-ending epiphany!

When we realize that we are One, it gives a whole new meaning to life. Rather than striving for perfection, we manifest the perfection we already have, rather than working to liberate oneself, we realize that we already are free, and rather than working to improve oneself, we are actualizing the substance of an already-complete all. Oneness is not about improving who we are, it’s about changing the way we think to resonate with the already complete all that we as One consummate through life. Oneness is a paradigm shift that liberates our perception of reality from the distorted and limited confines of separateness (i.e. human perception), to a complete consciousness that resonates with the all.

We already are perfect, we already are free, we already are One with God (the all), we only need but realize it! This cosmic realization of everything we are, and the liberating consciousness of embracing the all, that is what life is really about. This is the essence of Oneness.

(Credit goes to +Liza Persson for Inspiration)

First of all, I will define addiction: Addiction is a physiological and/or psychological need (or “dependency”) that has been identified with. The “identification” part is the particularly important bit, the reasons for which I’ll get to in a bit.

Secondly, to prevent any misconceptions about what “identification” is, I’ll provide the definition commonly used in the psychoanalytic context: “Identification is a psychological process whereby the subject assimilates an aspect, property, or attribute of the other and is transformed, wholly or partially, after the model the other provides. It is by means of a series of identifications that the personality is constituted and specified.” (Laplanche, J. and Pontalis, J.-B. (1973), The language of psychoanalysis.)

My understanding of identification is a bit different than this, some of the differences of which are implied in this article, but if you keep an open-mind and don’t focus so much on the petty semantics, you should be able to benefit greatly from the information and explanations provided.

All addictions begin with dependency, which is the reliance on a substance (usually a drug, but can also refer to any person, place, thing, or idea that you identify with). One has some kind of need (or want) to be fulfilled, and the substance is used to fulfill that need, most often fulfilling only in the short term (instant gratification), but of no value for long-term fulfillment.

When the substance fulfills the need, there is a physiological and/or psychological (depending on whether the need being fulfilled deals with the body or with the mind) incentive to continue using it, because it fulfills the need. From your body/mind’s standpoint, drugs work exactly as advertised, providing an effective fix to an obvious need, and this gratification encourages the body/mind to want to consume more of that substance to continue fulfilling that need, all of which of course is managed by the brain. So far so good, your brain says, I see a need and I am fulfilling it. “Thanks a lot chemicals, you make my job easier!”

But of course, substances only work like that in the long term. Over time, you build up a tolerance to the substance, for the same reason you build a tolerance to sunlight, darkness, loud noises, cold weather, crowded rooms, and so many other things that when you were a child, were completely overwhelming. The first time you try a new substance, whether it’s alcohol, cigarettes, marijuana, sex, or heavy metal, it’s almost always more overwhelming when you are first exposed to it. But to prevent you from becoming overloaded with all the intensity that is life, Your body builds up a tolerance to substances, including drugs and alcohol. This is the first mistake addicts make about their addiction: they think that tolerance is specific to the drugs they do, when it’s not really specific to anything. Building up a tolerance is a part of life!

Once your brain gets used to the intake of substances to fulfill a need, such as pain relief, an antidepressant, boredom relief, dulling emotional pain or trauma, the backgrounding of personal conflicts (family issues, lover quarrels, self-loathing, stress from work, coping with rejection), there is a valid incentive for you to continue to take the drug. After all, when you have problems and drugs make all the negativity with the problem go away, it’s a good thing, right? So far so good, The drug is working like magic, getting rid of all the problems!

Except it’s not. You come back to reality, and the problems are still there, and now you’ve built up a tolerance to the drug which requires more of the drug to “fix” the problems like you were before. So you take more of the drug, but the tolerance keeps building, you find that eventually, even an infinite amount of the drug will not help you any more. It’s like eating so much candy that you no longer enjoy it, it only makes you sick to your stomach even as you are craving for more.

The sad part of all this is, is that this problem is not specific to illegal drugs, it’s about all drugs, and even beyond that all substances. Medications, energy drinks, masturbation, sex, pornography, even something as commonplace and necessary as “socialization” can be an addiction; sadly, until social network giants like Facebook became an integral part of many peoples’ lives, social addiction was considered by most people to be an oxymoron; now it’s a serious issue, go figure!

People who either self-medicate or take prescription drugs for mental illness are actually some of the worst addicts, because they are considered by most people to “need” medication, with the entire psychiatric community callously declaring that it’s impossible for a mentally ill person to function without taking prescribed medication. In cases like these addiction is actually “fed” by the people who claim to be “helping” the mentally ill. This is by far the most absurd aspect of the scientific community.

So getting back to the process of addiction as a real-life scenario: Once you realize that the tolerance is so great that the substance(s) you’re using can no longer produce the desired effect, you say, “okay, I’ve had my fun, looks like it’s time to quit”. You figure, I can quit any time I want to, it’s just a drug, and all those people who couldn’t quit I heard about are just statistics, just the ones that weren’t mentally strong enough to overcome their addiction. But I know myself well enough that I can overcome this addiction!”

10 years later, with several months of rehab, support services, and therapy– nope, still addicted. What went wrong? What happened? Let’s find out, but first, a small recap:

I believe that adaptation plays a definitive role in environmental conditioning, and (as explained earlier in this post) addictions develop initially as a valid fix to real physical or psychological needs. But the use of substances to fulfill needs isn’t addiction in-and-of-itself, that’s just dependency. So where does dependency become addiction? The answer, as I explained at the beginning, is identification!

You see, while dependency is definitely unhealthy, you can always stop depending on something so long as you don’t identify with what you’re dependent on. If you are just using substances without associating the substance with the effects that it has on you, there is no addiction, because there is no addictive substance. You can only be addicted to a substance if when using it you associate the effect it has on you with conditioning.

If you smoke a cigarette but don’t associate a cigarette with a a means of inhaling smoke, a transfer device for nicotine, a substance that makes one feel relaxed and lightheaded, a stress reliever, an icebreaker, a subculture, a social activity, an act of rebellion, a sex symbol, an easy way to become cool, a mouthpiece, a gum-number, an activity to do when bored…all of these things that people associate with cigarettes, without even realizing it, identifying with these things are what makes cigarettes so addiction. Nicotine isn’t addictive in-and-of-itself, that’s a lie. Nicotine creates the effect that fuels the dependency, but it’s not addictive. Addiction is far more ordinary. All the above tiny trivial aspects of smoking above, all those are what makes cigarettes addictive.

The same thing applies to all addictions. It’s not the chemical or even the object that makes it addictive, that’s just the source of the dependency. The addiction lies in how you identify with it! The reason why that despite dedicating all their willpower to quitting, that billions of people cannot quit whatever addiction(s) they have, is because they’re going about it all wrong. Addiction isn’t caused by the substance, it’s called by identification. If everyone knew and applied this knowledge, addiction issues would be largely solved in the world!

Dependency doesn’t become addiction until it’s identified with. I can’t explain it any simpler than that. If you want to prevent or cure addiction, I have a universal cure that anyone and everyone that applies it can and will be free of the slavery of addiction, and (if applied to every single facet of their life) complete freedom in general: Don’t identify. Just two words. Thousands of scientific experts couldn’t figure it out with all of their fancy tests, probably because it’s too simple for scientists to even comprehend. Yet there are few pairs of words worth applying more than these two: Don’t Identify.

True Love

For the past five years I have dedicated myself to the pursuit of truth, and become obsessed with finding a meaningful purpose in life. Last year, I have finally found this purpose, the irony of which is that it had nothing to do with me, or my individuality. For my purpose is your purpose, and your purpose ours, and it has nothing to do with any of us as individuals. What I found is Love, and it transcends the diversity of separateness, and unites us as a whole. 2011 was an exciting year for me, as it marked the beginning of a spiritual journey that would truly revolutionize my life.

Up until a few months ago, I was selfish, my every thought and value and choice a reflection of that selfishness. Even when I helped people, it was only for my own gratification, and though I felt myself happy enough, I was haunted by dissatisfaction and inner-loneliness. What I did not realize, until recently, is that the ridding of my suffering could not be done through mere acquisition of knowledge– I needed to change the very way I looked at the world! I understand now how important it is that my every thought, perception, and action be motivated by selfless love; only through selfless love can anything I do be meaningful. True love conquers all selfishness, and ultimately unites us all. I am now blessed with such a love!


One particular quality I am sorely lacking in, and one is becoming increasingly necessary for me to learn, is humility. Humility is a necessary quality for one wanting to bring about real change in the world, because without humility there is no understanding; humility is where it all begins. To lead you must follow, to be extraordinary you must first be ordinary, to revolutionize the world you must first embrace it. The whole world, everything you need, it’s all there. The knowledge, the wisdom, the application, the insight, the whole of reality there for you to take in, apply, impart to others. But to truly understand any of it you must let go of yourself and all your preconceptions about what it all means, let it all go so that you take in the pure beauty of it all, and effectively utilize to continue the evolution of an already beautiful world.

The most important aspect of humility is the recognition that nothing in this world is original. If you don’t realize that your thoughts are not original, than in your ignorance you will live out someone else’s dreams, unwittingly accomplishing nothing but proving yourself to be a slave to your own ignorance. Nothing you have done has not already been done before, and until you realize this you will continue to be a slave to the past. Knowledge of the lack of originality in this world is key to bringing about true change, because true change isn’t the attempt to forge an original reality, true change is the evolution of the reality that was already there to begin with.

Instead of foolishly trying to collect knowledge to try to prove something, to try to make a point or impose some self-righteous system of reality that you feel is “right”, let go of your Ego, let go of your mind, let go of everything. Then you will realize that everything’s already there. The whole world is there, the knowledge is there, the secrets are there, the love and the beauty all there. The whole spectrum of emotion, and even beyond what us mere humans could understand, all that potential is within, suppressed only by our own misguided Egos. Let go of your pride and preconceptions about how things “should” be, and just let the natural reality unfold, in all of its natural glory, purity, beauty.

Humility is the beginning of God.

In a fast-paced, multitasking, and output-oriented world, it’s often difficult, or even impossible to be satisfied with ourselves. At the end of each day, we aren’t usually thinking “Look at all I’ve accomplished”; more than likely, we are more consumed with what we failed to do, didn’t have time to do, and all that could have done. This sense of daily dissatisfaction can drive us to want to accomplish more in life, and the society we live in certainly conditions us to believe that dissatisfaction, like pain, is a good thing because it reminds us to be more productive.

But is dissatisfaction really a good thing? Can something good really come from feeling bad about oneself, from these feelings of ineptness and the stressful compulsion to accomplish more and more? Even though accomplishments can imbue our lives with a sense of pride, if that pride is built on negativity, stress, and a sort of inferiority complex, can such a life really be considered meaningful?

1 Corinthians 13 brings out the truth of the matter: for something to be meaningful, it has to be built on love!  “1 Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal. 2 And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 3 And though I bestow all my goods to feed the poor,and though I give my body to be burned, but have not love, it profits me nothing.”

So if you want to do something amazing in life, or accomplish great things, make sure your heart’s in the right place. Don’t do it for yourself, for your pride, don’t really do it for anything. Let your actions simply be the manifestation of the love within, the love so pure and unconditional that it can’t help but pour itself upon the world, to share itself with everyone. Life isn’t about doing, it’s about being. Being You, Being Love, Being God.

Dissatisfaction isn’t born of a spirit of Love– it’s born of the fear of incompetency, the doubt in one’s potential, and a spirit of self-loathing. While you can accomplish great things through the compulsion of dissatisfaction, your actions will ultimately be meaningless, because your heart was in the wrong place.

Satisfaction  is the sense of fulfillment that can only come from living a life of love. This is why people feel most satisfied when they do what they love, from making memories with loved ones, from volunteering or giving with a spirit of altruism. When you live a life of love, satisfaction is the positive sense of meaningfulness that is the natural byproduct of that love. Satisfaction is the refreshing evidence of of a love-led life!

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